Mom, 

I told you if we are going to have a relationship it has to be one based on honesty. You seem to be able to remember and throw at me all my past but yet deny all of yours, K or J. 

No, I am not perfect, but Jesus is. I've been a Christian clean & sober for over 30 years. You're saying many untrue things about me to my children & my grandchildren to keep them from talking to me. 

I don't understand why you keep defending abusers. You done this all my life. All your children are gone, but me and it seems as if you don't care if I live or die. Well Jesus does and He loves me. He loves you also. 

You have a chance to right all your wrongs, make amends and stop causing so much drama in the family. It starts with being honest. I've done nothing but be good to you after everything because I love you. I always felt if I could love you more you would love me as well. 

I've learned through the years it was never about me not loving you, but you just didn't love me. And this truly breaks my heart more than you will ever know. I've spent most my life just wanting you to love me, you claim to, but your actions show you do not.

 Please Mom, call out to Jesus because he is the only one who can save you.  I can't but I can pray for you, as I always have. 

I'm your last child living and you rejected me all my life. But Jesus will never leave me or forsake me. Jesus will restore all that has been taken from me because I believe in his promises. 

And in spite of everything that I've been through, I'm able to still love is because of Jesus. And no one not even my family can take that from me. 

I pray we both are in heaven one day reunited with family where there is no more sorrow, lies or pain. Where all our tears are washed away. Where we will truly remember the past no more.

Krystal,

I pray that one day you will see that only through admitting your wrongs can you see what is right. I have stood by you thick and thin to try to help you over and over. 

I could not as a Christian, mother or grandmother stand by and let you and your ex-husband continue to severely abuse your children.

You have to stop blaming others of why you lost your children. You know you lost them because you did not take care of them and abused them also.

Your grandma has spent all your life filling your head full of lies about your childhood. And taught you how to stay with abusive men and cover up abuse.

You may think, why would she do this, so she can justify in her own head why she stayed with a child molester & an abuser, herself.

I went to you and we sat down on your front porch and we talked for a long time. You ask me if I was sorry for turning you in when your oldest was a baby. And I told you right to your face no I was not.

You even began to tell me about what your grandma had done to you when you were a child. And what you had told me, and other things caused me to stop speaking to her for years.

You will never be able to live a free life until you come to Jesus. It is not just a simple prayer but a life changing relationship with Jesus. 

And this will not happen until you stop listening to and telling lies and have a true come to Jesus in your life.

No one has ever come to Jesus by blaming others. It is about repenting of your own sins. I pray for you and all my grandchildren and will until the day I die.